I am afraid of motherhood. Before I had a boyfriend, I never seriously considered being a mom. First of all, I was afraid of pregnancy. I didn’t want to be saddled with the discomforts of a bulging tummy and most of all, the corresponding pain of childbirth. Secondly, I never really liked kids. I used to wonder what was it that made my friends go mushy over a baby. I mean, yes, a baby is cute and cuddly but why would I want to coo over a creature who would just stare at you or would touch you with saliva-laden fingers? And then there areRead More →

This is the fourth year that I’m having a word for the year. 2014 was about grace, 2015 was about focus, and last year, I chose work to guide my goals and plans for 2016. It’s unfortunate that I lost my year-end posts for 2014 and 2015 when I failed to back up my site, but for 2016, I have a lot of learning experiences which I summed up in this post. I didn’t have a hard time choosing my word for 2017. As early as November, I somehow already knew what my word would be and on the first week of December, an articleRead More →

It’s New Year’s Eve. I’ve been back in my hometown since the 26th for a much-awaited week-long vacation. It has been a flurry of activities since we arrived — a cousin’s wedding, a get-together with friends, a visit to the market for some dried fish — all these on top of caring for a very excitable 3-year old. But there were also quiet moments, especially when the little girl was fast asleep or when she’s busy playing (thank God, she knows how to play on her own now). I had hoped that the down times would be opportunities for me to catch up on myRead More →

And with a new look and name! It’s been a roller-coaster of emotions before I finally mustered up the courage to come up with this post (I still am partly grieving as I write this) but I am trying to move on. For those wondering about the reason for this blog’s hiatus, here’s a condensed version: I totally forgot to renew my host subscription which led me to entertain the idea of not blogging anymore. However, sentimentality prevailed and after a couple of weeks, I decided to renew, this time with a new host, only to find out that I failed to back up myRead More →